Monday, November 12, 2007

My last post from the USA

I can't explain the emotions I'm going through right this very minute.
Everyone is calling wishing me well travels.
My house is cleaned and dinner is in the oven.
My bags are by the door and my paper work is finished.
My heart is so heavy with leaving my children behind.
My heart is so full with the thought of meeting Joseph for the first time.
I have packed his bag with his little toys and clothes and I'm not sure anything
I'm bringing him will fit. I'm not sure what he likes to eat or what formula
he is on. I don't know him at all. So if you can walk with me when I kneel down
for the first time and raise his little body up to mine. What is that going to
feel like? For him and me? I hope he can see alittle of his mom in me at that
moment.I hope I can breath my life into him, so that he knows that I have come
along way be able to lift him up and hold him close. But my road is in no way a
comparison to the road he has had to travel. Losing his mom..I pray that God will use
me to super glue the cracks back together again. Losing something or someone is
never something you can just move on from. You have to heal and you have to trust
The Lord that he sees the BIG picture when we only see the little.
My life is about to change. Our life is about to change. We are bringing this little
guy home and I can't wait.

Write more from Africa,
much love,
Robin

6 comments:

rcsnickers said...

Robin! I am so excited for your family at this time. Will be praying for you and Joseph as well as his Mom. Look forward to hearing more from Africa!

Letisha

Jamie said...

Wooo hoooooooo!!! What fun to read about how you're feeling, and totally identify with it! Plump up the Guest House pillows for me... I'm right behind you!! ;0) I can't wait to read your posts from Liberia!
Love,
Jamie Z. :0)

Anonymous said...

I am so very excited for you, I have to admit as I prayed this morning for your travel, safety, and Joseph I cried like a baby! I can't imagine the excitment you must be feeling right now and I am right there with you! I love you and can't wait to hear from you! Kiss him for me! Wow, can you believe you will finally get to do that!
Love you,
Michael :)

missy said...

This is so wonderful Robin. I know that you are just in disbelief, but I can assure you that it is very very real. You'll never be able to completely describe what you feel the moment you meet little Joseph. It can be compared to childbirth in a lot of ways, but it is so unique and so special and even, if I dare say, a more spiritual moment than childbirth. I'm praying for you and can't wait to hear your story and see pictures. Love, Missy

Julie Redman said...

I remember these feelings so well. It is a very exciting time. Try to soak it all in because it goes by so fast. I look back at the first time I saw Teddy and it seems like a daydream. I am happy to hear you are getting to go now. Have a great trip!
Julie

Anonymous said...

Go with God, sweet sister. Love, Denise

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