I was doing bible with the kids this morning and our verse for the day was
Psalms 1-4.

Blessed is the man who walks not in the counsel of ungodly,
nor stands in the path of sinners,
nor sits in the seat of the scornful;
But his delight is in the law of the Lord,
And in His law he meditates day and night.
He shall be like a tree Planted by the rivers of water,
That brings forth its fruit in its season,
Whose leaf also shall not wither;
And whatever he does shall prosper.

The verse that stuck out to me is the part where it says He shall be like a tree
planted by the rivers of water, that brings forth its fruit in its season.

I feel like this is the season where I'm supposed to be producing some fruit.
I don't like it tho. It hurts and it's not what I want to be doing.
I keep singing that song I need the every hour. I feel like I take it literally hour by hour. I can be doing great one minute and the next I'm crying.I'm so tierd yet I didn't want to take a nap today because I have been taking naps for the past 18 weeks and I don't want to do anything that I was doing before..
Scott went back to work and the house slowed way down and I had so much more time to
feel my feelings and to let it sink in.Gosh it feels as though someone kicked me in the stomach when I wasn't looking and than just ran off and left you standing there
wondering why..

At the end of your day good or bad is God still enough?

When He works on the left hand, I cannot behold Him;
When He turns to the right hand, I cannot see Him.
But He knows the way that I take;
When He has tested me, I shall come forth as gold.
…
But He is unique, and who can make Him change?
And whatever His soul desires, that He does.
For He performs what is appointed for me,
And many such things are with Him.”
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“Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him.”(thanks Denise and Greg)

~ Job 23:9-10, 13-14; 13:15b

If all of my days are bad days and no rainbow I see
is God still enough for me?
I have to rest in the knowledge that God is enough.
I keep saying it over and over again. It's not about my
happiness it's about him..Will I trust him? Will I believe
him? Will I rest in him?

Weeping may remain for a night,
but rejoicing comes in the morning.
Psalm 30:5

I awoke to a new day.

Losing a baby is very hard as most of you can imagine. It's hard emotionally and physically and mentally. It's not something you can ever prepare yourself for.
The night we lost our baby was very traumatic. I had what they call a placenta abruption.
It is very rare ,so if you're expecting, this is not a common thing to happen..but we had done all the right things. I had started spotting on Sunday and stayed in bed all day.
Scott and I went to the Dr. on Monday morning and heard our precious one's heart beat and we were told that everything was fine. We laughed and were so thankful to the Lord. On Monday night I awoke to alot of blood. It was terrifying to say the least. Our dear sweet neighbor came within two mins and we were out the door. Our Dr's office is an hour and ahalf away and I knew we couldn't make it that far. We stopped at our local hospital and they stabilized me and I was rushed by ambulance to brookwood. I couldn't see Scott but he called back to me "Robin I'm here" I knew he was but it was the words themselves that I remember. "Robin I'm here" I am not leaving I will not let you go through this alone. If our husbands are supposed to love us as Christ's loves the church then my husband is a walking example of Christ.(not a perfect example) but his love for me is extraordinary. His devotion to me is unwavering and his example of a Godly christian husband and father is a good one. He stood over me in those wee hours of the morning comforting me and being my rock. He will miss our little baby but he is so grateful that the Lord spared my life. I'm not sure where another day will lead our family,but I know that as Scott as my protector and the absolute love of my life I will follow him and try to be a better wife as he tries to lead our family down the road that the Lord as set before us. Not all of our roads are going to be easy but I pray they will draw us closer to each other and mostly draw us closer to The Lord...

The Valley of Vision

Thou hast brought me to the valley of vision,
where I live in the depths but see thee in the heights; hemmed in by mountains of sin I behold thy glory.
Let me learn by paradox,
that the way down is up,
that to be low is high,
that the broken heart is a healed heart,
that the contrite spirit is the rejoicing spirit ,
that to have nothing is to possess all,
that to bear the cross is to wear the crown,
that to give is to receive,
that the valley is a place of vision.
Lord, in the daytime stars can be seen from deepest wells,
and the deeper the wells the brighter thy stars shine;
Let me find thy light in my darkness,
thy life in my death,
thy joy in my sorrow,
thy grace in my sin,
thy riches in my poverty
thy glory in my valley.~

In the grieving of our baby, I will praise You.

Sick Babies!

The throwing up started at 9.oo last night. My sheets were stripped and a fresh new set put on baths were given and Scott and I took bets on who would get it next. You see when you have 6 kids it's a sure bet it doesn't stop with just one.
Little Joseph our tough Liberian threw up so bad but he was so tough..The only thing is Scott happened to be wrestling with all the boys and little Channie on our bed.
All I heard was "hurry get off the bed get in the shower it was a frantic kinda cry from Scott. I went into a MESS.... We take care of everything and get Jo settled and
I was holding him and singing to him on our bed and BAM! He threw up again.....All over our bed and me.At this point no clean sheets and poor Joesph was sick.Our sweet daughter Taylor felt so sorry for her little Hersey kiss and she played with him on his pallet by our bed and sang to him and made him feel comfortable. She could not and would not leave him until he was fast sleep. In the middle of the night we hear "mom Channie is throwing up" oh boy here we go..This morning Tucker grabs Channie and rocks her and comforts her while I'm doing other things. I didn't have to tell them to do this they just did it.God has given both of them such a heart for their siblings. I feel so blessed to have them helping me raise this little mob I call my family...

I want to be BASE for my kids....

Today I learned some new and very interesting things from a preacher I know and
many of you have heard..Voddie Baucham .....
Today was on multi-generational vision and how we pass that down to our children so that they will pass it down to their children etc....Scott and I are first generation Christians and so everything we are doing with our kids is new territory. We want more than anything to be a family that Glorifies God in all we do and say. We want to be able to see the fruit of the 4th generation. Our great grand kids..So you may ask yourself how do we as a family do this..
Well lo and behold the answer is in Jeremiah 29v5
5 build houses and dwell in them;plant gardens and eat their fruit.
6Take wives and begot sons and daughters;take wives for your sons and give your daughters to husbands, so that they may bear sons and daughters-that you may be increased there, and not diminished.

So Voddie went on to say these little gold nuggets to help us leave a Legacy.
1} lay down Roots, build a house and dwell in it. I think our generation needs to
stay home more. We are so busy trying to rush from thing to thing that we don't dwell in our homes anymore we simply sleep there.(just my thoughts)
2}un-pack your bags-
3}Be a Rock for your kids. Be a stable person in their life so I believe in order for you to be a rock for your kids you have to be around them you have to be available.
4)this is the best one- Be base for your kids- Remember when we were kids and played freeze tag? Base was the safe place. The place you ran to. The place where no-one could tag you. Safe!! I want to be base for our kids. I want our home to be a place that even when they move on that they love coming home to because it feels safe.
If I get nothing else right in this world I pray that I become a forever student in learning how to love my kids and pass down a Legacy that will travel down the generations to come. I cannot do this without the grace and love and forgiveness of my heavenly Father so with Him I will walk down this path...

Pray a little prayer for my gang tonight.I'm afraid the stomach virus has hit the White House....Yuck!!

Cake anyone..?

Building memories with my new tea set.

I have started a new afternoon tradition around the ole White house.
I have started having tea with my lovely children. It has been alot of
fun watching the little ones sip on tea. Teaching my boys how to to be very careful
with their cups.I bought several different kinds of teas and some very unique
tea cookies..They are just loving it.. I have at least one come up to me several
times a day and say can we have another tea time... I want my new tea set to be
deeply enbedded in their memories not just something that looked pretty but they could never touch. They are already asking who will inherit this set...I love it.
Have I mentioned that I love being these kids mom..They are always gain to try my
goofy ideas without to much complaint....
I hope they look back on all I have taught them yes even tea time with fond and happy memories..

Ok girls this is a good one.

I have a friend that makes all of our birthday cakes I think you have seen them
from time to time on here. She is such a Titus 2 woman. She has taught us to quilt
and many many more things over the years I've known her..She has invested in my children's life in so many ways. She is one of those friends that is truly there for
you...When I started my home school journey I didn't have a whole lot of direction
past teaching them reading, writing ete but Kathy helped me grab a vision for Taylor in being a keeper at home one day and teaching her the skills she would need to do this.Just yesterday she came over and I invited another family and she taught us how to make the cutest aprons...She left a video for Taylor and it was a cake decorating video that she had produced herself...It was AWESOME!!It got Taylor and I fired up to start making cakes....I encourage you to go to her blog and check it out. Taylor and I love doing these type things together and it will be something she will do with her own kids one day......I'm so glad that God brought this special person in our life and one of the cakes on the video was Jokey's baptism cake.So go check it out....
Just click on her name at the left hand side..I promise you will book mark her blog.
Kathy

coop playing with Siah in the snow and coop took this picture of a bird.....he's a natural

fun with daddy and fun in the snow.........

70's and the kids went wild!!!!

It is a beautiful day here in the deep south. My kids are so ready for summer.
today we ditched our troubles and went and laid a blanket outside. The kids played
baseball and I read a book...Then they ate Popsicles. What is it about kids eating Popsicles? They make the best pictures....

5 weird things about me! -Taylor tagged me

Number 1- I talk for my animals! All of our pets have a distinct voice and their 'own' personality! (I know it's strange!)but I might say something like "ma I have fleas"It cracks the kids up and I hope to pass down this trait that I learned from my own father.(Taylor assures me this is one she will not take up)

Number 2-I drive around in cemeteries looking at head stones..I always remind the kids I want them to come visit me alot when I die...(it really makes you stop and think of the very short time you have on this earth)although it drives my older kids crazy.

Number 3-I sleep with a fan over head,a portable fan next to my bed blowing on me,a very loud sound machine and a Louis L'Amour cowboy tape...plus my hubby rubs my feet to help me get to sleep..(I know high maintenance)

Number 4- I can-not listen to people talking on call in radio shows or people on the news that their interviewing. I get so embarrassed for them....

Number 5- I love having a large family!I love not having a minute to myself not even in the bathroom. I love carrying on three conversations at once. I love who I am when I'm a mom...I love not working and not having to put on makeup every single day because my kids love me with it or without it... I love my bed because it stays full of all these little miracles...I love my table when it is full of food and kids.( We are in the market for a bigger table for our newest little one.) So I guess from the world's standards I have given up the lie that I should be working outside the home putting my children in day-care and letting someone raise them so I know I"M VERY WEIRD.....

Little Ponies.....

Channie has never had enough hair to do anything with until now..
She finally has enough hair to have a couple of ponies in her hair......
I love having a little girl.She is so sassy and sweet and just like me at times.

Sunday afternoon football with his own team!!!