I choose you

Walking into the ultra sound room I felt just a tad bit nervous. I get to see the face of my child.
The one the Lord has knit together for our family.
For His Glory.
As I'm lying on the table and the first images come across, I feel like I'm the most blessed woman on this earth. Why me?
I blow it more often than not, I have so much to learn and yet he has blessed me again with one of the greatest treasures on this earth.
A baby! A little baby boy who will change our family.
A baby who will test my patience on days.
A baby who will teach us more than we could teach him.
A love that if I decided not to have that I would never get to experience.
Yes, it's very hard to explain to people when your pregnant again or when you want to adopt again. How can I look at these pictures and say, " I have had enough .....I'm to scared to have you. We don't have the room for you, We don't have a big enough car, My in-laws or parents would go crazy, they just wouldn't understand."

Well my little son, I choose you! I choose to take the road that has you intersecting our life.
I choose to be your mommy and to gain 6lbs in two weeks.
To throw up just by looking at a commercial.
To have people stare at me and whisper.
To have people over and over again ask me "Don't you know what causes that".
To have people ask me " is this enough."
To give up my life as I knew it. So that you darling boy can be born..

Yes I choose you over all this world...I choose your life...................and our life with you in it...