Why we chose open adoption....

Family, the lines that bind you to one another.

Invisible strings that attach us no matter how far we go.

We had said we would see the birthmom at least twice

a year. Alot of people didn't and still

don't understand our decision to know Lasundra and

to have her a part of our life.

When we talked through having her become family we knew

there was some fear to be worked through.

We knew that if the Lord brought these two little girls into our

life we could bring their birth-mom into our life as well.

We know that sometimes life is not always about the easy road

or the most comfortable road. It's about leaving foot-prints on the road

The Lord has put before you.

Our road was running right into Lasundra's road

and we wanted to travel well with her.

We talk on the phone and we had already saw her when we first got

the girls.

We invited her for Christmas with us and she

came this weekend with the girls full sister Mimi.

I have prayed for the Lord to use His (my) house to minister to people

and sometimes He does it in strange ways.

This weekend we spent two nights and days loving on and eating with

Lasundra and Mimi. We laughed together and she helped comfort

the girls when they were fussy. She gently held them close and whispered

words of love in their ear. When she couldn't get them to stop crying she would

pass them to me and they would nestle and go to sleep.

In the middle of the night she would hear their cries and creep to their bedside

and tell them everything was ok.

On Sunday morning I was making breakfast so I tiptoed to her room and

she looked out from the covers and I gently placed Ellie next to her.

She had the biggest smile on her face as she nestled Ellie.

She looked up at me as if to say "Thank you."

She changed diapers and wiped noses.

She was part of a big family

for one weekend and she kept saying how she loved it.

She said

"I love the way you guys have every meal together."

"I love the way everyone helps run the house."

"I'm going to take back to my house the way y'all do things."

She showed me how to take care of the girls hair and skin.

She showed me that not everyone looks at color.

She loved all of our kids and when she left I was so thankful

for the beautiful memories we shared.

Our girls will have proof of their birthmoms love for them.

(She drove three hours to get here.The longest she had ever driven by herself.)

They have pictures of hands gently holding them.

They will have an answer for their questions when

they get older

and

I will have a friend!

Fear will cause you to miss

out on alot of things.

But if you trust not in yourself but

in the Lord things will turn out just the

way He planned.