Celebrating Motherhood

Our family has been and still is in Texas.

We attended the Vision Forum Baby Conference with some

dear friends and their 8 children. My expectations of this trip have been

blown away. I have been broken somewhere deep inside. We heard Michelle Duggar speak

and I was crying as I heard her words of encouragement. 

When she sang The Joy of the Lord is my strength.

I was crying more when

I heard Kevin Swason speak on loving the imperfect children around us and how the body of Christ should

step in and help those families who are traveling a difficult road.

Doug Phillips said what if  it was an honor to help escort  a child into the arms

of Jesus and I thought of William.  What if we looked at miscarriage as God's gift to

our babies enjoying life without sickness and heart ache. I  know this is hard but if you believe in heaven why is this so hard.?

I cried some more in fact through out the whole church service as I was around some women who

loved and respected their husbands and their smile warmed you to the core..

I cried as Scott and I talked about our relationship and how we can

make some changes to make sure we're accountable to the Lord for our

actions toward each other.

I know I cried a lot and if you know me

 very well  this may not surprise you

but my tears will not stop.